Archive for September, 2010

a year later…

Posted in Infertility, Pregnancy on 29 September, 2010 by juniper76

A year ago today we had the third beta for our first pregnancy.  A year ago today we were told that pregnancy would soon end.

A year ago tomorrow it did end…

Today we are 22 weeks into our second pregnancy.

Today the butterflies in my stomach are from little feet instead of big fears.


when is an update not an update?

Posted in Pregnancy on 23 September, 2010 by juniper76

When there’s nothing new to tell you…

We didn’t end up seeing the OB last week.   She was at the hospital delivering a baby, so we only saw the midwife.

The midwife was unconcerned by my weight loss, but made a note for the OB.  Hopefully we’ll find out what the OB thinks next time?

On the plus (?) side, I actually gained a couple of kilos in the last week.  I have to admit it was mostly sugar-fueled, but it was reassuring to know that there is still order in the universe!  I’ve reverted to my low-sugar ways and will just see what happens over the next few weeks…

Other than that, I’m definitely growing.  I wonder if I’ll ever achieve that classic pregnant belly shape or if I’ll stay forever B-shaped?  Either way, my work shirts are starting to feel some strain and it may be time to invest in a few one size up.  I looked at some maternity wear last weekend, but I swear they’re not designed for big-busted women!  Seriously, how ludicrous is that, given how much growth goes on in the breast region during pregnancy???  The only maternity shirts that could accommodate my breasts (F cup) were the ones shaped like a normal t-shirt (ie no shape at all!).  Why would I pay $80 for that when I can buy a t-shirt without the “maternity” tag for $10?

I think I’ll see if I can find someone who does (reasonably-priced) made-to-measure maternity wear…


Posted in Pregnancy on 15 September, 2010 by juniper76

OMG!  20 weeks!

Somehow, since being able to call her “she” rather than “it”, it’s all starting to feel real.

I’m so in love with our baby girl!

And in return, she’s kicking the crap out of my insides!  (This accusation is based solely on the visual evidence presented at the scans – I’ve not felt much of anything yet.)

Our next OB appointment is tomorrow.  I’m starting to worry about my weight again, so I intend to ask her about that.  I’m not going hungry, but I’m still losing weight (now down 14kg from my pre-pregnancy weight – I wish I could lose weight like this when I’m not pregnant!!).  The reason I’m worried is because she was measuring less ahead at last week’s scan (1 day ahead) than she was at the one before (3 days ahead).   I just want to make sure she’s okay.  I’m hoping it’s just how the measurements were done or something similar and not a sign of any problems.  Anyway, I want to hear what the OB has to say about it…

and the verdict is…

Posted in Pregnancy on 8 September, 2010 by juniper76

…that bub is uncooperative!!  After constantly reminding myself we may not get to find out, the only part of the anatomy scan that bub was cooperative for was the gender determination!

We were thrilled to see that we’re having a little GIRL!!!

The rest of the scan was somewhat inconclusive.  She was her typical difficult self and was constantly rolling over or covering up whatever the sonographer wanted to measure.

She was especially troublesome with her face.  She stubbornly had her back to us for a long time, even after I’d gotten up and walked around a couple of times.  Then when she finally turned over she put both her hands in front of her face!  And kept them there!

Since she was so uncooperative, we’ve been told to go back for a repeat scan in 6 weeks.  The OB at the u/s clinic said that they couldn’t see any problems during this scan, but wanted to do the repeat to make sure there wasn’t something she was hiding.  So we go back again in 6 weeks and then have our first ante-natal class at the hospital the same night (just enough time in between to have some dinner somewhere).

even more waiting…

Posted in General, Pregnancy on 2 September, 2010 by juniper76

The waiting never ends, does it?

I seem to spend my entire life in a holding pattern waiting for the next event.  Maybe I should do something to change that?  I have no idea what though?

Anyway, back-tracking a little, that pesky cold eased up after a week, but then the last effects of it lingered around for a few weeks.  I think at some point it switched to a normal pregnancy-related nasal irritation because it’s still around, but the transition was blurred so that I don’t know where one ended and the other started.

Mostly things are good now.  I keep the heartburn under control most days (yesterday was a bad one, but today has been good).  Mostly what I’m dealing with now is fatigue.  It hit me pretty hard the week before I went to Sydney.  We had our second OB appointment on the Friday of that week and the midwife recommended starting an iron supplement.  I started that the following day, but, to be honest, I’m still exhausted.  I don’t know what a normal dose of iron is, but the supplement I’m taking only had 5mg in it.  There’s another 10mg in my prenatal multivitamin, so I’m getting 15mg all up.  I think this will be my next google project…

The rest of the appointment went well.  The midwife couldn’t find the heartbeat on the doppler, so she ended up doing a scan (our 5th so far, which sounds like a lot to me), which showed bub was “swimming upside down and presenting its bum to her” (as she seemed to like to say… repeatedly).  Once she knew where to look she found the heartbeat very quickly, so we got to hear it for the first time.  I could have listened to it all day!

The following week (last week) I was in Sydney for a work conference.  I stayed with my sister while I was down there and, for most of my visit, both she and her husband were home from work, sick with the flu.  Fortunately, I appear to have survived that week unscathed and uninfected!  Not sure if I was lucky or if my immune system is doing better than I give it credit for?  Probably lucky…

So, this week back at work, and it’s week 3 of Super Fatigue.  I think I may be permanently cranky now.  I really don’t envy the people who have to work with me.  It hasn’t helped that it has been a frustrating week of delays and distractions.

The insomnia last night didn’t help either…  I’m hoping for some better sleep tonight.

So, where does that bring us?  Ah, yes, to more waiting…

Tuesday is our anatomy scan.  Bub (the creator of so much cramping, nausea and heartburn) will be 18w6d and, knowing him/her, s/he will be characteristically uncooperative.  I really won’t be surprised if s/he does everything in his/her power to protect his/her modesty.  But hopefully by the end of Tuesday I can stop typing “him/her”, “his/her” and “s/he” and just use one pronoun.