Archive for September, 2009

okay, a bit better now…

Posted in Infertility on 30 September, 2009 by juniper76

I decided to risk the “phonecall in the bathroom” scenario.  And, you know what?  They never called!  Grrr, I was sitting here at this computer in agony for an hour or more and I could have been on the toilet, in the shower or, better yet, downing a bottle of something very strong (for medicinal purposes only, of course) until I passed out…  *sigh*  On the other hand, I am actualy glad they didn’t call, so I shouldn’t complain…  And I am joking about the alcohol…

Anyway, 2 hours later I am feeling somewhat better.  I’m hoping that was the worst of the pain, but I guess it just depends what else needs to come out.  Sorry, we’re deep into TMI territory here, aren’t we?

On the even brighter side, DH brought me home some soft drink and chocolate tonight.  I’ve been so good lately with avoiding the refined sugars that I was (briefly) tempted not to accept them, but then I caved.  I have to make him promise not to buy more though, because I don’t think my willpower is up to resisting it at the moment…  ;)

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O!M!G!!!!

Posted in Infertility on 30 September, 2009 by juniper76

Pain!  Pain worse than I’ve ever felt before!  Pain so intense I want to vomit!  I know there’s an end to this, but I wish I could sleep from now until then…

And instead I’m waiting on a work phone call.  Would it be inappropriate to take that call in the bathroom?  Probably…

the end is nigh…

Posted in Infertility on 29 September, 2009 by juniper76

I can’t say it was a surprise, but of course it’s still a huge disappointment.

Today’s results:

HCG:  81
P4:  5

Thanks so much to all of you who have kept me company during this long wait.  Your words and support have meant the world to me!

This isn’t the end of the journey, just a brief pause along the way…

progression of hpts…

Posted in Infertility on 27 September, 2009 by juniper76

Yesterday I was asked to post photos of more recent HPTs, so here is the progression of HPTs, including this morning’s result.

Please note that the DPO count on the tests is based on a O date of 5/09/09.  I have since revised my O date to 6/09/09, purely because I could have O’d on either day and the later date makes me feel a smidgeon less stressed about my beta results!  So, for the later O date, subract 1 from all the DPO counts…

For the really keen, you can click on the picture to take you to a full-size version of the image.  :)

“coffee” and a chat…

Posted in General, Infertility on 26 September, 2009 by juniper76

For some reason, even when none of the people actually order a coffee, I automatically describe meeting friends at a cafe as “coffee”.  It’s even stranger when you consider the fact that I can’t stand coffee – have always hated the stuff!  And yet, I make plans for “coffee”…

So, “coffee”…  I spent the most delightful afternoon with some wonderful ladies I met on FF!  Ladies, I had a wonderful afternoon and it was exactly what I needed to keep my mind off slow-rising betas and my acupuncturist’s parting comment!  Can you believe four hours went by so quickly!!  Can you believe that almost half of our bill was for bottled water!!  Between the four of us we drank a whopping 9 bottles of water – that’s 5.4 litres!  It was a very hot Spring day today!

But at least the 2nd dust storm for the week didn’t hit until the end of the afternoon.  I’m not sure about the rest of you, but I found it kind of eerie driving home.  It wasn’t anywhere near as thick as Wednesday’s, but you could see the dust in the air!  Man, I can smell it through the whole house and it’s not good!  Unfortunately DH had the windows open and was too engrossed in the football (AFL) grand final to notice the dust…  :(

For the record, dust storms are not common here!  I’ve lived in Brisbane my entire life and I don’t actually remember the last one (I’m told there was one at some time during the 80s).  These ones have passed across most of the Eastern coast of Australia.  I’ll post some photos from Wednesday’s dust storm if I get around to it, but in the meantime you can search for Sydney dust storm on YouTube.

negativity on a stick…

Posted in Infertility on 26 September, 2009 by juniper76

So, I had acupuncture at lunchtime.  I was actually running late and she called me when I was still on my way.  In a way that was sweet that she was worried about me.  But at the same time I know what she was worried about was that I had lost the baby and was too upset to attend my appointment or call to cancel.  When I finally got there she said she was just being a mother hen…

Anyway, I managed to present my slow-rising hcg levels in such a way that she agreed with me that we should not give up on this little bean, that a successful pregnancy was still possible!!  I couldn’t believe I’d managed to get her to agree and had successfully avoided the expected negativity!!  So, in go the needles (including one in each big toe that really seriously stung when they went in) and time to relax.  Ahhhh…

Then, afterwards, just before I was leaving, negtivity struck:

She said, “I’m not suggesting it’s the case here, but you should be aware that slow rising hcg levels can be a sign of ectopic pregnancy.”

Aw, shit!

^$*(@)^%$)*@%^&@($*)…

Posted in Infertility on 25 September, 2009 by juniper76

Second beta:

HCG:  105
P4:  26.6

Once again the nurse is telling me that’s okay, but that’s only a doubling time of 92 hours.  She said they just want to see it triple in a week…

Back for #3 on Tuesday…