Archive for August, 2009

update…

Posted in General on 31 August, 2009 by juniper76

I see it’s been over a week since I last posted…   It’s been busy.  That’s my excuse and I’m sticking to it!

Seriously though, work was busy last week preparing for today’s workshop.  We’ve been working on this project for months (years if you include the previous phases of it) and today was our first presentation of results to our client (for this phase).  I’m pleased to report it went very smoothly and stuck perfectly to our 4 hour scheduled time allowance!  There’s still lots of work to do, but so far, so good…

I’m glad it’s over and now I’m exhausted.  I’ve been forming bad habits when it comes to bedtime and sleep recently so it’s time I changed that and caught up on some of those missing hours.  And for now I’m going to blame that sleep deprivation for my lack of coherence and focus…  Yep, I’m sticking to that excuse too!

Ok, no more until I can start making sense again…  You haven’t done anything to deserve that sort of punishment…  ;)

headache…

Posted in General, Infertility on 22 August, 2009 by juniper76

I’ve been feeling better the last few days (aside from AF visiting).  I’m not waking up feeling like my chest is full of fluid and I’m getting to sleep at night rather than spending two hours coughing first.  Of course, as I was explaining this to the acupuncturist I started coughing, but I think we’ve already established that my body doesn’t really like me much…

AF has even been nicer than normal.  I don’t know if that’s thanks to the acupuncture or not, but I thanked the acupuncturist anyway!  Today (CD3) has actually been the worst, but that has been related to specific events of tissue passing through the cervix – very painful, but very brief (30-60 seconds).  Okay, believe it or not I’m holding back on the details here, so sorry if you think that’s still too much information.  I’ve spent the last 20 months talking on forums in detail about every aspect of my cycles and I’m past being embarrassed – I only hold back when I think case others may be embarrassed.  My acupuncturist got the detailed version.

Anyway, as I mentioned, I went to acupunture today.  The needle she put in my right hand actually kinda hurt.  When she first put it in it felt like it was vibrating.  Then it got less noticeable.  But near the end it started hurting quite a bit.  It’s the first time that’s happened so I’m not sure what to make of it?  And then I’ve had a headache all day since.  Connected or coincidence?  Anyway, she’s given me some chinese herbs to take this cycle starting tomorrow (CD4).  I’ve got to dissolve them in a glass of hot water and drink them once a day.  I’m dreading the taste – they do not smell promising!  And I’m not a huge fan of hot drinks.  I guess we’ll see how I go with it tomorrow…

Okay, time to go.  My glass is empty and it’s time for a refill.  I’ve bought my usual AF bottle of sparkling wine (shiraz tonight, for a change).  One glass down…  But between the headache and fatigue I probably won’t get past two tonight…  That’s okay though.  I’ve got all of Sunday to get through the rest!

Aha! I knew it!

Posted in General on 16 August, 2009 by juniper76

My BFF recently returned from a 9 week European vacation with her husband and daughter.  While she was away I had this dream that she returned home 6 months pregnant.  I think I may even have had it twice…  There was no chance of her actually coming home that far along since I saw her just before she left, but, still, I was expecting her to come home with good news.

It seems my timing was just a little out.  When we were alone today (for all of 5 seconds!) she told me she was pregnant!  Obviously there’s a whole host of mixed feelings, but on the balance I’m over the moon for her.  And the best part is, she did it without the clomid this time!  She was diagnosed with PCOS in high school and did a couple of clomid cycles when TTC their daughter before she even ovulated.  They had just bought some clomid to TTC#2 but she hadn’t taken it yet.  So, there’s still a twinge of “why not me” there in the background, but how could I not be happy for her?!

Just to explain why we only had 5 seconds alone – we had a get-together with our friends today and for the first time in ages almost everyone actually made it!  Only one person had to work, but his wife and kids were there so every family in our group of friends was represented!  So, in all, there were 9 children aged between 2 months and 4 years.  There were tears, there was screaming, there was blood (one 2yo slipped in the sand and hit his chin on the play equipment) and there was The Inflatable Bat…  The sun was shining, the air was still and the bay looked gorgeous – it was a perfect day!

And now it’s 5.44pm and I’m ready for bed…  Right after some leftover cheesecake, of course!!

daydreaming…

Posted in General on 15 August, 2009 by juniper76

I’ve been daydreaming lately…  Daydreaming about travelling…  I’ve got itchy feet and an urge to see new sights…  Pity about the $ restrictions…

Anyway, amidst my travel daydreaming haze, I re-read that travel quote DH had received.  Turns out I read it too quickly the first time – the flights weren’t to NZ, they were via NZ… to the Cook Islands!  Mmmm, sun, water, warmth – the tropical climate I’m so accustomed to!  Well, I’m more used to sub-tropical, but anything to escape this (really-not-that-cold-by-world-standards) winter!

At the other end of the spectrum, I’ve been daydreaming about snow.  I blame television for that – I’ve been watching too much Canadian television lately (is there such a thing as too much?) and now I see snow whenever I close my eyes.  But, seriously… if I’m feeling cold now with temperatures in the range of 5-25°C, why the heck do I want to go to snow?!?  I don’t know if it’s just because I’ve only been in snow three times in my life (when I was 12, 15 and 30), but just thinking about it makes me grin!  I think it’s important to remember something though – where there’s snow, they have two things we don’t have here in Brisbane: 1. central heating; and 2. appropriate winter attire!  (FYI, the only difference between my summer and winter wardrobe is whether or not I wear a cardigan.  Same jeans, same t-shirts, same shoes, same everything – just a question of “to cardigan” or “not to cardigan”?)

Ah, snow, sun, beaches, cocktails (can I have cocktails in the snow?  this may be a deciding factor!),… New Zealand, Tasmania, Cairns, Cook Islands, Canada, Scotland (oh, how I love thee, Scotland!), Cape York (to go or not to go in June 2010?  can I stand 4 weeks with my parents and without my DH in the name of adventure?), the Indian-Pacific (train from Sydney to Perth or vice-versa across the middle of Australia), or just a good old-fashioned road trip (love a good road trip!!)…  What do I want?  I want them all!  And in my daydreams, I can have them all…  ‘Night!

still sick…

Posted in General on 13 August, 2009 by juniper76

Yep, 3 days later I’m still sick.  To be honest it hasn’t been that bad – a sore throat, aches and pains, fatigue – aside from the killer headache.  No fever, which is good.  And looks like, whatever it is, I probably picked it up from our nephews/niece on Saturday since my MIL came down with the same symptoms at the same time.  FX tomorrow the headache lets up enough that I can get something done.  Even if it means going to work.

I am, however, lamenting the waste of a perfectly good public holiday yesterday – stuck at home feeling sore and sorry for myself, while DH spent the day with friends.  The waste is made all the more lamentable because our next public holiday is Christmas Day…

On a brighter note though, I saw a quote from a travel agent that DH had requested – he’s been looking into us jetting off to NZ for our holiday!  Nothing’s decided of course, but it’d be nice to go and see some sights…

mission aborted…

Posted in General on 10 August, 2009 by juniper76

Ok, not going to the Ekka this afternoon.  I started feeling sick not long after I got to work (must be allergic, yes?) so decided not to risk exposing my in-laws to any potential germs.  I know they’ll probably encounter worse at the show, but if all of those other people stayed home like me then they wouldn’t.  Does that make sense?  Kind of like do unto others as you want them to do unto you – I don’t want you to share your germs, so I won’t share mine…

I’m actually hoping it’s just me being run down or something I ate because it’s still just mild nausea.  I’m going to rest this afternoon and will hopefully be okay for work tomorrow.  But, if I do end up sick, it’ll be a day too early as I won’t have sick leave again (ran out in December) until Wednesday!!  Why, you may ask?  Because Wednesday is my anniversary of employment – 7 long years ago during the Ekka I started my career in this industry.  I was a fresh-faced engineer with a couple of jobs (neither lasting more than 3 months) under my belt and I was still looking for my niche.  Well, I guess you’d have to say I found it.  I still have days when I can think of nothing less pleasurable to do than go to work, but truth be told I do like my job.  Even on the “please don’t make me go to work” days I would still concede that.  So, if I bitch and whine about it, it’s just venting – don’t read too much into it…

Ekka development?

Posted in General on 9 August, 2009 by juniper76

So, yesterday we had our niece’s 4th birthday party and I learned that the in-laws are off to the Ekka tomorrow with the kids.  After avoiding the Ekka for years, and in spite of it being the last of the old-style Ekkas this year, I hadn’t planned to go this year.  But, suddenly I want to.  So the plan is to go to work in the morning and beg/plead/bargain with my manager to agree to me leaving at lunchtime.  If that goes well I’ll be joining the in-laws and will replace those photos in my previous post (which I found on the internet) with some that I take myself.  I guess that means I have to have a dagwood dog and a strawberry sundae!  Oh, the sacrifices we make!